Brain Fart 3: The Non-Twin

My older sister. I sometimes just feel so jealous of her. I know it's stupid, but I sometimes feel like I'm being compared to her, and she is always better.

She is smarter. She can be sad she got an A- because she didn't study for her final. I'm glad I got a B+ because I studied so hard.

She's better at being a girl. She's better at fashion, hair, make up, skin care. That's my own fault for not really caring until now. But I still feel like it comes easier to her.

She has a better part time job. I worked at Target for the $8 minimum wage. I took this job because my mom and grandpa wanted me to get it as quickly as possible. She waits out until "rush week" for frats are over. She then is picky about her job. She scores a job at Hanspree and makes WAY for money than me.

Her personality is more likeable. I'm just not that into all the fads today. I don't know artists or even song names. Same with movie stars. Common sense and manners seem to come more easily to her than it does me. I'm socially awkward. She's popular. I always make some sort of social mistake.

She is just more liked. I may be the "well-behaved" one. But, that's ending soon since, hey, what can I say? I'm a teenage girl. Even then, while I'm well-behaved, she's the more passionate and affectionate one it seems. People just seem to like her. They see her faults and her mistakes, and like her more for it. It's because she has more character. I don't always know how to react to the parents' doting. So I seem cold and distant. Maybe I am. But she's always...warm. She seems to connect with the parents better than me.

I know this is lame. I shouldn't compare myself to her like this. She's my sister, and I love her, as I'm sure she loves me. I'm sure she can think of things I'm better at than her. I can probably think of a few things if I try. It just seems like the things that will get you places in life all come more easily to her. Which makes me sad.
but just sometimes.